It's still January....

Anyone else think that this month is dragging on?? I feel like this month has been filled with enough excitement in my life to fill up the whole year... only 11 months to go. Every year we go through the same usual trauma... or more like drama... and it's like we never learn. Throughout the year you will have to deal with some crap that makes you angry, maybe it makes you want to quit your job or move to a different city and start over. Or, you may lose a friend, or make a new one that you wouldn't mind losing lol. And yet, we are always determined to make "this year" the best one ever. We are creatures of habit. We are victims of our own optimism, and then we turn around and can't understand why this year, feels just like the last.

I, of course, have a theory about this. We wait for people to change. We wait for people to "grow up" and "get a grip". We don't expect ourselves to go through the same process. This year, I am turning 29. I am officially going to be in my last years of my twenties, and waiting in the shadows for 30 to come and smack me in the face. Except, I have an entire year of 29 to wait for people to do all the things that I should probably just do by myself.

I made a career change at 28 and still being 28, I'm going back to the career I thought I had left behind. I realized, I need to grow up and do grown up things with my life. I have an immense amount of respect for the people in my second profession and what they do everyday. I have met people who have taught me some valuable lessons and have shared insight with me that I may have not been able to have if I had not taken the six months I needed to explore myself. So back I go... into a world I'm not entirely sure I belong to, and excited to see if I have really done the changes I need to become an amazing professional woman.

Some days, I wonder where life is going to take me. I sit back and fantasize about all the things I want to be doing, and places I would love to visit. I realize, I didn't take as many risks as I should have while in my twenties. I think I'm going to spend 29 planning for all the amazing adventures I'll have in my thirties, and not worry so much about who I am, and what I'll become. I'm going to go back into my chosen field and really work hard and play hard. I don't know if anyone actually reads my blog, or if someone random will stumble upon this post and feel inspired. I hope that someone will and realize that, yes... it's still January, but the next 11 months should really be a time of growth and self discovery.

Don't dwell on what could have been.... maybe 2o12 will be the year that we can all sit back and remember as the year things happened.